I am in love with Someone who loved me so much that He died for my sins.
“Shine a bright light into an already lighted room, and you have changed nothing. Shine that same light into a dark corner, and you have shattered the darkness.”
“God knows just where to find us, and in turn provides all we need to find and worship him. When we follow God’s guidance, we may be sure that he will not fail to bring us to our goal. He who brings us out will also bring us in.”
whoa, i wasn’t expecting to stalk so many people tonight on facebook. it just happened! i was curious what some of my classmates from high school were up to. i found it crazy how many of them are still super close with their high school friends and/or are still in the same relationship. i also found it cool seeing people getting out into the world, kind of like me.
i’ve been reflecting on what has happened since i left high school, and i have changed a lot. i mean A LOT. i’m sure if someone were to stalk me on facebook from my high school class they would be surprised to know where i am at in my life.
first of all, i was one of the few people who actually went to school out of state. i go to a school where no one from my high school goes plus i didn’t know anybody going into it. i am actually quite thankful that i didn’t have connections here. it forced me to get out of my comfort zone and be my own person instead of feeling like i was known as being friends with a high school buddy. don’t get me wrong, i still like some of my high school friends, but i am not the same person i was in high school.
that brings me to my second point. i am not the same person as i was in high school. i have become my own person who has learned how to live life independently as well as dependently. i have become so much more confident in myself. (i don’t get as nervous going up to ask a professor or faculty member a question! i have tried out for worship teams. i didn’t make them, but i still had the guts to try! i even call people for fun! now that’s a huge step, people!) i have learned how to open up with others and to grow strong, healthy relationships that i would have never had in high school.
i certainly have increased my personal faith and have made it my own. coming here, i no longer had my family by my side telling me to get ready for church or to read my bible. i was on my own. i had to figure out a way that best fit my spiritual needs. i have found that i best fill those needs through music, writing, and taking walks outside while talking to God. i probably would have never figured that out if i was still at home. i still have a long way to go in that area of my life; i struggle daily just to read the Word. (why is that so hard to do?)
and third, i have fallen in love with the design world: layout, type, color, line, web, print. everything about it makes me giddy. yeah, who would have thought?! i mean, in high school i took a few art classes, but i didn’t do anything really with design besides a few things for my commercial art class or a t-shirt design for DI. coming into my freshman year of college, i knew i liked art, (i have been drawing for years) but i had no clue what the design world entailed. man, did i pick the right major or what?! God certainly had a plan for me. i have been designing like crazy this year for classes, my job, and a few freelance jobs on the side. it definitely isn’t all fun and games (just read clients from hell, then you’ll understand some of the things designers have to go through) but in the end, i love what i create and most importantly, that i get to help someone out.
so that all said, i like where i am at. i couldn’t see myself anywhere else & honestly, i could see myself living here when i’m done with college. i am so thankful for the growth i’ve experienced these 3ish years at Northwestern. i’ve had my highs and lows, but i wouldn’t be where i am today without those.
i’m not sure what is going to happen next in my life, but i sure am happy where God has placed me. He has blessed me with a creative and loving life here in Minnesota. let the adventures continue!
“Alienation and aloneness are part of the human condition because of sin. Without Christ, we are utterly alone—but God has taken action.”
relationships won’t always be like the fairy tales. some people need to realize that.
thank you for relaxing days. i didn’t do any homework today, but i designed, sketched randomly, and watched jimmy fallon and doctor who. definitely a good day. thank you that i felt more at peace today; i could definitely feel Your presence more since last night. i just pray that i will continue to trust in You especially for my future. i pray that i will keep learning to not want all the time because that leads to selfishness and getting myself hurt. i don’t know what’s best for me and i need Your help to get through this; i can’t do this on my own. i am so undeserving, yet You give me so much. and because of that i am grateful.